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2010-11-17T11:31:00.000-08:00

this place serves as a haven when I'm sad, confused, intrigued, bored, frustrated or just tired. 25 and counting...

2010-06-27T20:11:00.000-07:00

You know
When you have about 27 working days to go before freedom

You start getting listless at work
But you also start realizing you have 27 days to finish all your projects on hand
Which makes work a conflict of personal and professional interests
Which is bad

Which makes me feel relieved and anxious at the same time
Cos you know, someone has to pay my bills,
Thank god I’m not paying anyone elses (although I would)

It’s one of those moments I feel I want to revamp my life
Only to realize it’s already June
And before long, it’ll be Chistmas
And I would have spent another Christmas alone
Which is fine
Which is ok
Which is hopefully not the case this year but I know you cant rush these things or force these things look at what happened the last two years between me and ahem paul.

I guess being 25 and having no idea what you want to do it a scary and exhilirating thought all at the same time!

2010-01-17T10:43:00.000-08:00

faith, my dear. have some faith.

2010-01-17T10:26:00.000-08:00

the year started off on a terrible note - if i'm not wrong, paul david-lee lavalley made me cry. even though he was 8000 miles away, he was still capable of eliciting that kind of reaction from just one sms. and so all i remember from that night was how i was crying beside yin and how kong angrily texted him back and told him to fuck off. :)

the next morning, i woke up and decided to go "look for myself". i ended up at the very unexpected crowded starbucks at one fullerton and started writing. i remember being relatively happy about myself that day.

fast forward to what daddy said to me a week into the new year. by this time, i had become withdrawn and i just wanted to talk to myself and no one else. daddy gave me a friendly reminder that this was not how a family should function. that was enough reminder i guess to remind me... that i should try not to neglect them and include them in my life. a hard thing to do because of the current situation - i am jobless. and i feel like a failure - i feel like i've been screwed over by zebra crossing - that i have put my heart, soul and love into it for 16 months and what i get is a slap in the face when the directors decide to split and they cant make up their minds what to do. i really feel that way even though i didnt lose money in the venture, simply because i put 200% into that company - dont blame me for the bitterness. i love the people and i loved the work, and i would probably do it again - i just wished it didnt end this way. i'm really lucky to have learnt so much in that 16 months... maybe life was not meant to be perfect in that way. like jer says - everything is a learning experience. i should be content, at least after pouring all my anger out here, i think i will be.

the job search has been... a rollercoaster ride. Officially, i started sending out resumes only on Wed. I'm thankful there have been some interest though i'm really keeping my fingers crossed and taking a very conservative and no-expectations expectation with these jobs. i'm scared of failing - and possibly disappointing the people who care about me. that's why i very seldom tell people of my plans until they are finalized, that way, i dont have to be worried about them worrying about me. it really feels terrible to be on a high on wed cos i had a couple of companies/agencies call, then to be on a low over the weekend cos (of course) no one responded to anything. it's really a rollercoaster ride... and i am really afraid of failing :S

especially when daddy was sweet enough to figure out a way to buy me the iphone and deliver it to my room on a night i was out late. i love my family. i never ever want to shut them out of my life, but i dont want them to see my failures. they are the people i care about the most and they deserve the best for me, not the worrying and uncertainties. :(

i dont know why this name still appears but i have been thinking about it more and more. i think the more i try to push him away, the more i notice things about him that i've never seen in the past. how it must have been so difficult for him to survive when he was looking for a job, how he must have felt so alone and how all i could do was to be on the phone to listen to him, not being able to maybe give him a hug when he needed it the more. maybe all these have made him a stronger person. he seems more positive and focused now, which is a really nice change. so many things i feel i can learn from him now - especially when he's recently bought a new truck and a new tv! haha :) it's really comforting to know he's still there for me. it's just like his green pillow - it moulds itself to fit my body shape, just like what i think he's slowly doing now. he's trying to keep his distance, yet appear at important moments like today, reassuring me about the interview and all.

i think i'm blessed, only because i have these wonderful people around me.
i should really work harder and get what i deserve for myself so that i can provide for these important people.

faith, my dear. faith.

2010-01-09T14:00:00.000-08:00

my room is a constant work-in-progress and after 2 weekends, i think it's about 60% done. Threw out many things and re-read many of the cards and notes over the years. Can't help but wonder "what would have been" - but that's just me being an emo-prick. life will be interesting this year... it has already been an exciting first week so far. I always knew it wont be so easy - not like the change in numbers 2009 will automatically signal an instant change in my life so i guess we'll have to slowly work at it.

"I am sick of four walls and a ceiling. I have a need of the sky. I have business with the grass" - Richard Hovey

2009-12-31T15:03:00.001-08:00

we shall all aim to be this in 2010! haha :)

2009-12-31T14:44:00.000-08:00

really glad they played this song last night - kinda summed up my 2009. thank god for my family and good friends. thank you :)

2009-12-29T11:24:00.000-08:00

even the chocolate didn't help.

2009-12-25T13:40:00.000-08:00

wants to stop succumbing to desires over this xmas season.

2009-11-13T12:17:00.001-08:00

get out of my life :)

2009-10-29T11:18:00.000-07:00

一樣的月光/徐佳瑩

倔強的表情　就這樣隔離了我們想觸摸的臉龐　不再體貼退讓
沉默的對話　就這樣取代了我們想聆聽的願望　不再交換悲傷

太自以為的世界　被你離開的反作用力　鎖進黑暗陷阱

一樣的月光
怎麼看得我越來越心慌
你留下最清楚的步伐
竟是指引我孤單的方向

一樣的月光
怎麼照不亮未來的形狀
喔　就這樣吧　我的愛
讓寂寞的月光佔據我的窗

自由的路況　就這樣阻擋了我們想超速的逃亡　不再戒慎緊張
獨處的時光　就這樣取代了我們想蒐集的擁抱　不再殷切需要

太多理智的世界　被你離開的反作用力　鎖進黑暗陷阱

一樣的月光
其實看得我越來越心慌
怎麼你留下最真實的回憶
都是提醒我失去的聲音

一樣的月光
已經照不亮未來的形狀
喔　能回來嗎　我的愛
讓瘋狂的愛情佔據我的窗

2009-10-06T08:48:00.000-07:00

time is not meant to be wasted doing mundane and brainless things like waiting around for nothing in a hotel room. time moves so slowly yet so fast all at the same time. just sick of time i guess. i read a quote somewhere which said someone who dares to waste even one hour does not know the meaning of life.

2009-10-04T14:23:00.000-07:00

i guess that's all the love i'm worthy of.

2009-09-09T08:50:00.000-07:00

mabel is more than excited that VICTOR/VICTORIA is finally more than just an idea we've been mooting the last 6 months. She is awed by the sheer talent displayed at the first read today and is looking forward to generating lots of publicity for the show. The magic of theatre still captivates her. Amazing stuff :)

2009-09-05T08:14:00.000-07:00

what a difference some restful sleep (finally) and good advice can make. amazing how he tells me to go to somewhere that used to make you happy - like the place you used to dragonboat to chill out and relax for a bit. genius. even i didnt think of that. it feels good to have someone understand without having to tell them anything.

2009-09-04T07:04:00.000-07:00

dont you dare look down on me. i work my ass off too.

2009-09-03T12:19:00.000-07:00

unsatisfied. especially when we're trying, but conversation doesn't seem to come easy and shared topics are few and far between. boo.

2009-08-16T08:24:00.000-07:00

wants to party. now.

2009-08-09T12:34:00.002-07:00

2009-08-08T10:58:00.000-07:00

of course i screwed up friday at work. and screwing up at work is like screwing up my life cos right now, work is pretty much my life. and i hate that feeling.

luckily there are these people who laugh with you even when your jokes are not funny. ie friends, to make your day unbelievably better. thank goodness for them.

run far far away!

2009-08-06T10:23:00.000-07:00

what interesting people i've met this week.

i dont mean to generalize but i think a certain financial district in singapore need to put their executives and top money-makers in basic courtesy classes. saying simple things like thank you, excuse me and sorry are so foreign to these animals it disgusts me. thank goodness we're not going back there again.

on the other hand, this has been a rather happy week. work is going downhill (and the scary thing is even though i have such a cool and wonderful job, i think i'm just going through the motion and trying to get through tomorrow unscathed). i need the weekend to catch up on everything. we'll be at orchard on monday so do come round and pick up a flyer, post-it pad and car decal - we'll be giving away air tickets if we spot you on the roads!

an unexpected playground getaway made the week so much more bearable. no need for fancy food or pompous settings. it's really only the company that matters in the end :)

i'm glad i got off my ass and went back to salsa. meeting people again is somewhat unnerving so thank goodness i can still remember a teeny weeny bit of salsa from eons ago. being on the dance floor makes me happy. maybe it's time to revive that piece of wood standing guard at the corner too... tempting :)

2009-08-05T10:12:00.001-07:00

想睡，又睡不着。
心，不安。
不好受。

2009-08-03T08:52:00.000-07:00

this photos sits on my office table :)

2009-08-03T08:40:00.000-07:00

有时爱美在无法永恒。

2009-06-29T08:27:00.000-07:00

i'll always be thinking but i've learnt to stop yearning.

2009-06-23T11:24:00.000-07:00

post-vacation depression

2009-06-02T19:16:00.000-07:00

stikes a chord

单人房双人床

词:李焯雄
曲:郑华娟

也许你的爱是双人床
说不定谁都可以陪你流浪
你的目光锁在某个地方
你的倔强是一道墙内心不开放

也许你的心是单人房
多了一个人就会显得紧张
想看看你最初的模样
你脱下来的伪装你会怎么放

别说还有感觉
你我都知道我们只能忠于直觉
正因为欠缺所以总不懂拒绝
但又不再愿意为对方妥协

别说还有感觉
你我都知道拥抱不代表亲切
可能是害怕被拒绝不敢直接
还是我们在等下一次的机会
同样皱著眉却有不同的滋味

也许你的心是单人房
但你的欲望却是一张双人床
想看看你真实的模样
你收起来的忧伤你把它怎么放

别说还有感觉
你我都知道我们只能忠于直觉
正因为欠缺所以总不懂拒绝
但又不再愿意为对方妥协

别说还有感觉
你我都知道拥抱不代表亲切
可能是害怕被拒绝不敢直接
还是我们在等下一次的机会
同样皱著眉却有不同的滋味

别说还有感觉
你我都知道我们只能忠于直觉
正因为欠缺所以总不懂拒绝
但又不再愿意为对方妥协

别说还有感觉
你我都知道拥抱不代表亲切
可能是害怕被拒绝不敢直接
还是我们在等下一次的机会
同样皱著眉却有不同的滋味
同样皱著眉各有孤单的体会

2009-06-02T10:09:00.000-07:00

show a little love :)

2009-04-02T10:29:00.000-07:00

i live amongst brave souls,
who dare to dream, and dream big,
love, and love without restrain,
work, and work like your life depended on it
play, and play without guilt cos you deserve it
cry, and cry only because it's really painful,
and smile, because every day brings new hope.

2009-03-11T09:22:00.000-07:00

Love is the extremely difficult realization that someone other than oneself is important--Iris Murdoch.

2009-01-18T12:24:00.000-08:00

it scared me how close i was to losing you and how finite it was and how if you'd not presented your case so well, that would possibly have been the last time we'll talk (ever). recounting that phone conversation we had, my heart ached thinking of what you said. it scares me how much i've changed, and how it's affecting this relationship. a part of me wants to do everything i can to make things better. but a part of me holds onto the belief that if i have to do things on purpose, then that's no point - and that's what you say too... dont force myself to do anything i dont want to. (but this comes at a price, and that is putting a strain on our relationship). i hugged your pillow so close to me tonight, carrying it everywhere i went - out to the living room for tv, and how i'm hugging it really tightly now. it's the only thing that connects me to you, where i can feel a part of you still here with me. i'm such a contradiction - i say i want to be single and alone and yet i crave companionship (the kind i know i need, i can shop by myself that's really fine). it's 4.30 and i'm supposed to be up in 2 hours, but the coffee's getting to me and i cant get to sleep. the room's in a big mess and i feel like throwing EVERYTHING away - all the books i've kept since secondary school just because they are living proof that i DID put in that hard work and (sometimes) insanity into mugging. i want to clean up my life, lose weight, be more confident, love myself more - maybe in the end, it's just self-worth issues... like i've been dealing with them all my life anyway. maybe i dont love you as much anymore... what's changed you ask me? i dont know. coming back to singapore and facing reality, maybe. you say i've been there everyday in the last 8 months... did you say 8 months? already? wow. and it passed without me realising it... without me making a mental note to say something special to you or make you feel happy (i've been pissing you off lately i know). you say you'll never hate me and will always love me, and you proved that just now on the phone. how can anyone love me with what i'm doing to them? to myself? it's beyond me. maybe sometimes i think you and i, will never be together..., and you say take one day at a time. but i have to think about the future. what's going to happen in 5 years if we dont think about it now? how do you know ANYONE's the right ONE? mum says it's a calculated gamble. i think staying single is safer. just... safer - at least you have an assurance you wont leave yourself, or that you'll (hopefully) love yourself forever. and so i think i'll be stuck thinking about this for a while this week. i wanted to start afresh somehow (in some way), but you. it's impossible for me to ignore you or to disregard ANYTHING you say. it's not your fault, no one can blame you for what happened, but at the same time someone has to take responsibility. it's tiring. i'm tired. this has been a long day (and night). and i've not felt this intensely about anything for a while now. there was something different, something finite about the way i said what i want to say today. there was also something different in how you said what you wanted to say today too. we were both presenting our own cases and in that i hope we found some answers to what we were trying to get across. it was a declaration of our feelings, yet how much do we really say? how much did I really say? let's not do this again for our tears are but solitary signals that this (the relationship) means more that what we think it means, to both of us (yes, i think, to both of us).

2008-12-26T14:04:00.000-08:00

that was a glorious outing! the company IS the most important factor =)

It's been a good week with loads of good news coming from various friends.

just need to slowly figure out my own life now. haha...

2008-12-08T08:55:00.000-08:00

this is really funny... haha =)

2008-11-24T09:01:00.000-08:00

i've not been this excited the entire year, save for the US trip and all that happened there. I've not felt this spark of hope and excitement for so long it almost feels foreign.

maybe it's a sign that dreams can still come true, if only we listened to ourselves and did what we've wanted to do all this while.

maybe it's living for ourselves and no one else and if this materialized, then we'd become living testament that chasing your dreams still work in this day and age.

life since returning from the US has been one big emotional struggle. i don't remember how many times i've cried because of work and of him and i'm almost turning into someone even i don't recognize - and it sucks. i'm amazed, really happy for and somewhat envious of all my other friends who seem to have their lives figured out - getting engaged, buying houses, getting married, having careers they envisioned having all their lives etc. i'm very much still in the process of discovery... and i dont think i'm getting anywhere near to an answer. But then again, maybe i do enjoy this process of finding out, of realizing what drives me and what i loathe. Maybe i dont EVER need to have an answer and yet still be enjoying this process. i think i have to let things go... and not kill myself trying to be ms perfect for everyone, cos that's not going to happen even if i die trying. (and there might not be a PERFECT in the first place... it's all my stupid thinking)

this dream is not an antidote. but it would remind me that dreams can be much more than just wild fancies or hopes, and if we want it badly enough, we might just be able to live this dream.

Taken at a candy shop on Cannon Beach on a beautiful rainy Sunday afternoon.

2008-11-10T12:30:00.000-08:00

sleep is my only respite these days.

2008-11-06T05:24:00.001-08:00

"...and when you tell him to stop saying i love you and he stops, you know he loves you."

i'm doing nothing right these days.

2008-11-04T08:43:00.001-08:00

how now, brown cow?

加油.

2008-10-25T11:31:00.000-07:00

timbre was such a great experience, no doubt most of the credit goes to ngak's fantastic voice and the great company. we should so go there more often. I'm a convert =)

and i absolutely squealed with delight/melted when he sang this... took me a while to figure where i heard this one (cos you know i'm actually very 93.3) =)

2008-10-20T07:38:00.000-07:00

Every Beat of My Heart
Corrine May

So here we stand
Anchored in hope
Letting the rain wash away every fear
Stars in the sky
Twinkle and shine
I pray they won't disappear

'Cause I don't know
where your journey goes
or how long it will take to unfold
But as long as we keep this moment shining in the dark
I will be watching over every beat of your heart

I wish that time
Could be replayed
I'd keep you here with me everyday
They say that love is letting go
I hope that you find your way

'cause I don't know
where your journey goes
or how long it will take to unfold
But as long as we keep this moment shining in the dark
I know you're watching over every beat of my heart

2008-09-16T14:25:00.000-07:00

being awake at 5am does bring its surprises... like this.

UNCLE当自强OST - 其实我不平凡 -

does anyone remember this show?! UNCLE当自强 - about a group of uncles trying to play basketball for their school alumni team or something! i remember being so in love with the theme song! (and there was this real basketball cutie trying to act in this show as well) heh. and this was all the way back in 1997...my goodness =)

2008-09-12T03:28:00.001-07:00

dragonfly was unexpectedly, a whole load of fun & nostalgia. i like =)

2008-08-30T13:33:00.000-07:00

GEMINI (May 21 0 Jun 20)

In Greek mythology, the Procrustean bed was a torture device, Anyone foolish enough to lie down on it would be forcibly modified to fit its exact dimensions. A person who was smaller than the bed would be painfully stretched and those who were too big would have their body parts amputated. I beg you, Gemini. You need an adaptable niche that will adjust to your unique needs and talents, not a rigid pigeonhole that squeezes and bullies you into assuming its shape.

this almost makes it sound like the world should change for me instead of me adapting to changing situations. muhaha

BOW TO ME =)

2008-08-25T08:27:00.000-07:00

The Vagina Monologues -
Get Ready, Get Set, Get Wet!

Tickets Here!

image credits: Zebra Crossing Productions & Nicholas Leong

2008-08-22T03:09:00.001-07:00

thank goodness for good friends. sorry if i've been grouchy.

=)

2008-08-15T19:26:00.000-07:00

muhahahahaha

you know how you always laugh when you see new drivers get stuck parallel parking and have to stop in the middle of the lot and let someone else maneuver the car into the lot?

STOP LAUGHING. cos i'm one of those bimbos/morons/drivers-who-shouldnt-drive. right infront of the prata stall at upper bukit timah too, where every single person must have turned and chuckled! =(

but having said that, i'm never going back to manual cars. driving an auto is like, in my best friend's words - "flying a plane"!
and considering i havent driven since CNY... i'm just glad i didnt crash into anything =)

so fun =)

2008-08-13T03:33:00.000-07:00

20 mins
35 mins
45 mins
1 hour
1.5 hours
twice a day if i'm lucky

that's my life now pretty much, and i'm not complaining =)

2008-08-09T07:30:00.001-07:00

you know how sometimes you're online but there're no websites you want to see,
you have 50 people on msn but none you really want to talk to,
you have work to be done but that you don't even want to think about,
you have things on your mind and all you want to do is try to sort them out but nothing you do seems to work.

this is one of those times...

mabel wants to live life with a purpose again,
but all she is willing to do now,
is hide under the sheets
and force herself to sleep,
for sleep may bring relief to the mind
and to the thoughts she's been having all these times.

no one said it was going to be easy.

2008-08-08T23:22:00.000-07:00

whoohoo! =)

还是粉红色的哦！爱你们深深!! =)

2008-07-25T09:56:00.000-07:00

Fail already la!

http://uaddit.com/discussions/showthread.php?t=618&goto=nextoldest

2008-07-25T08:56:00.000-07:00

DO NOT offend women!

If if you want to cheat, at least have some brains

taken from http://uaddit.com/discussions/showthread.php?t=670&goto=nextnewest
It's a fantastic site when you're too free, like me...

2008-07-23T11:01:00.000-07:00

die die die, i just did it! limweiyin, you must drag me across the finishing line k =) (or wait for me there la...haha)

2008-07-22T13:09:00.000-07:00

i love going to bed with a big smile on my face =)

2008-07-21T14:06:00.000-07:00

it's amazing how 'together' takes on a whole new meaning in times like these. It's draining to be waiting and it's terrible to be hyper-analyzing. Thankfully, the ups far surpass the downs and so i guess as long as i think it's worth it, then what does it matter? =)

2008-07-15T10:16:00.000-07:00

sometimes mummy really does know best... and boy am i a really lucky daughter. =)

2008-07-10T11:35:00.000-07:00

你是我心中一句惊叹 - 萧亚轩
作词:姚谦作曲:林俊杰

爱原来是这么个模样
近在眼前却不一定能够一眼看穿
过往四处探访却总是徒劳而返
只一秒你就轻易的攻入我心上

该怎么形容我此刻的感想
如果你了解我过往的渴望
当过尽了千帆你还在身旁
彷佛是一道曙光

你怎么知道我还等待情感
当所有人以为我喜欢孤单
是你敲我的门再把我点亮
你是我心中一句惊叹

我原来比希望更希望
在生命中有个同伴把心事都交换
际遇一面海洋孤单总随着我飘荡
是不是你就是我的唯一的希望

2008-07-10T11:28:00.000-07:00

Before I left for my ulu mountain in the States, a couple of different people gave me advice on how to make the best out of the trip. My cousin told me to go and do the crazy things that I would never do in Singapore, and pan told me to take everything as a learning experience. On my trip there, someone else told me that everything was worth doing as long as i felt it was worth it. I'm glad I had all these words from these people cos they did make my time in the States a lot more meaningful and worth it. The last 2 months was a mish-mash of emotions and experiences. I met so many people there who made me see life in many different ways, encountered situations which I would never have put myself through in Singapore and experienced a whole new way of life. Surprisingly (or not), it was a life where I felt extremely comfortable in. It was almost as though I had lived there much longer than 7 weeks and I loved my time there. Looking back, it was possibly one of the best 2 months of my life and I'm glad I had the chance to live it up, the way I wanted it.

2008-05-26T12:11:00.000-07:00

BLOGGING!! finally.

Life is interesting here. I'm working my butts off everyday and meeting loads of cool people. Americans love to talk to you, especially when they know you're not one of them. They'll ask a million questions but they are generally some of the nicest people I've met ever.

I figured the only reason I'm not even using the computers very much is cos the internet is DIAL-UP, not wireless, not broadband, but freaking 56.6.

more next time =)

take care people!

2008-05-07T05:09:00.000-07:00

it's a terribly interesting situation cos i'm actually at Tao Yuan Intl Airport now waiting for my connecting flight to Seattle. It's been a long day and I've been gone barely 7 hours. But weirdly, for the first time in my life when I'm out traveling, I'm missing home! muhahaha and I thought I'll NEVER be someone to say that. But oh well, as of now, let's just say I think I really enjoy traveling alone much much much more than traveling with new friends. I'm anti-social and insane la I know... So there... the flight's not due till 11 and I'm gonna walk around a bit more. It must be how much we're reliant on technology cos I was UBER happy when I saw free internet kiosks and found that my phone is on auto-roam. The wonders of technology and connectivity =)

For everyone who is reading this now, I am hou safe and relatively happy (cos I just saw Starbucks!). big shoutout to the loves and pan and alaric for sending me off just now. if mummy and daddy are reading this, I AM SAFE and well and starting to enjoy myself. Loves all! =)

later folks.

2008-05-01T12:18:00.000-07:00

i love smart ads! and these are cute too =)

Car alarm systems. muhahaha...

taken from this fabulous site. http://www.frederiksamuel.com/blog/

2008-04-23T08:58:00.000-07:00

i think few will disagree with me that the study break/mugging period is the most productive time of the whole academic year.

other than the frequent updating/checking/re-checking of blogs, face face facebooking, the endless hours catching up on youtube videos (*ahem*) we wanted to watch throughout the whole semester, the mindless chasing of tvb drama serials, and for some, playing around with colouring books, we still manage to find time to actually mug! impressive. =)

and so on one more my (very frequent) tv/youtube breaks, i caught the last couple of mins of this documentary on the amazing human body on discovery. i love discovery. it tells you everything you need to know, want to know and some stuff you don't want to know as well.

the program was fascinating cos it was explaining how dreams were formed and their function (other than making the impossible seem possible). did you know, that your dreams actually help sort through data in the brain, throw out useless information and then document and store the important stuff? apparently, when you sleep, your brain swells due to an increase flow of blood and every single part is in sort of an overdrive. every single portion of your brain is working then, except for the logic centre, which explains why we can dream of becoming billionaires, flying cows, become madonna or donald trump or i don't know, ryan reynolds?

heh =)

2008-04-17T13:51:00.000-07:00

i realised it's not rain that i like, it's the crazy thunderstorms (like the one outside right now at 5am).

=)

2008-04-15T08:03:00.000-07:00

and the happy streak continues! =) wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

2008-04-14T15:07:00.000-07:00

we tell ourselves not to live in the past, but there's nothing wrong with revisiting occasionally. especially those moments that still make your face light up and heart flutter every so slightly.

i go to bed a happy girl.

2008-04-10T07:28:00.000-07:00

we are all too freaking busy for our own freaking good.

2008-04-09T08:09:00.000-07:00

i'm in between the two jennifers... haha

2008-04-03T08:54:00.000-07:00

i love nights like these.

The unexpected finds, the sudden spontaneity, the tinkling of ivories,
the clean lines, the melancholic weather, the droplets on the window-sill
and the warm orange lights.

Must be because i like my new hair,
or maybe because I read "Expect snow!"

Maybe all nights should be like that.

=)

2008-03-30T09:39:00.000-07:00

in love with this =)

2008-03-30T00:04:00.000-07:00

just saw this random post on a db forum.

Hi, anyone knows of the overall ranking of the teams in Singapore?

I have tried checking the SDBA website...

Thanks!

Can use the last master serie to be a rough guide..
the few top team in SG are

no in order,

pattern more then Mountbatten CSC
Now Justice Come
Never Tailing U
Never Under Stimate
Some Attitude f*rking Some Asleep
Real Playful
Buy 2 get 1 free Canadian Pizza

taken from http://www.hydrotribe.com/board/index.php/topic,412.0.html

haha... tongue-in-cheek! =p

2008-03-29T12:48:00.001-07:00

really smart advertising!

taken from tinsiders.blogspot.com

2008-03-27T09:29:00.000-07:00

drained, and thinking, too much.
what a bad combination...

(and two of the three light bulbs on my ceiling light blew out on me. thanks)

absolute favourite weather, expect snowy sunshine i think

2008-03-15T22:00:00.001-07:00

about a quarter of what we ate, can you say FSNL... sigh =S

old school is a nice place, with nice views...

its best friend appeared on another blog a couple of weeks back...

and i found these at daiso this morning! =)

2008-03-11T09:19:00.000-07:00

evidence that i've been watching too many videos, i logged into my blogger account typing reioval@youtube.com. muhaha =p

i was just reading the lect notes from my bimbo module and this is what it said about tanning and being in the sun generally.

"Some people think a tan means good health and looks. Dermatologists know that a tan is a sign of skin damage. A tan does not prevent sun damage, IT IS SUN DAMAGE. Your skin "remembers" all damage; and with every burnt, the skin becomes more damaged.... Too much sun changes the texture of the skin and weakens the skin's ability to snap back after stretching, causing sagging cheeks and deep wrinkles."

so you people in the sun all the time (even when it appears to be cloudy), DON'T YOU DARE FORGET THE SUNBLOCK.

but i have to say, the weather the last 2 days have been absolutely fantastic for snoozing, or snuggling up in bed with a good book and hot chocolate. it's so unlike singapore! =p

2008-03-09T14:20:00.000-07:00

突然有一种想用华文写作的冲动，可是心里还真的没任何值得我记载或想讨论的事情。
只是忽然觉得华文是一个很美妙，也很诗情画意的语言。
没东西写，就不要破坏它吧。

晚安，这美丽的世界。

2008-03-06T10:11:00.000-08:00

i was watching some clips of becks playing for LA Galaxy and hearing "one-nothing" was just wrong!

One-nil! seriously!

haha

2008-03-05T06:51:00.000-08:00

jogging alone? nah.
jogging with a seriously good friend? bring it on baby!

=)

2008-03-02T05:27:00.000-08:00

it was just a normal day like any other. but it was also a day where i learnt how to value money and the importance of treasuring not just people but also the things around you. It was also a day i saw how an unnecessary, senseless and mindless comment can cause much hurt to others. these lessons presented themselves to me in the most subtle ways possible and on the way home, i just got them all.

i feel closer and closer to "the real world" increasingly....

i don't just want to be mediocre.

2008-02-28T08:46:00.000-08:00

i don't think i'll ever have kids, just because i think i'll never be capable of giving endless and selfless love and support, or facing the constant nonsense that my kids will throw me if they don't let me in on things just cos they feel I wont understand or if they do not see that my point of view always stems from the best of their interests.

it's seriously too tough and i almost apologize for being such a lousy kid. bleagh.

2008-02-25T03:01:00.000-08:00

日有所思，夜有所梦。

i just had the prettiest dream ever and I woke up with a smile on my face. =)

2008-02-24T01:05:00.001-08:00

yesterday was a fantastic day. Although i only had 2 hours of snooze time the night before (cos being a brat, I refused to start on my essay till it was too late), it was really great seeing everyone again for breakfast. Breakfast, like a new day, brings new hopes, new motivations and new adventures. Hopefully these new adventures will materialize. =)

FINALLY bought my runners after our 3-hour breakfast session. I love queensway, and i love my shoes. Let's hope i really put it to very good use soon ya. Eh... mdm, remember your date with my shoes k. =)

it was time then to welcome home a very irritating friend who just flew back from aussieland and whisk him away for a all-nighter mahjong session. haha. but quite seriously, we do miss your company la. =p to cut the very long story short, i was bankrupted within 2.5 rounds so my very nice friends decided to each sponsor me abit first. I swear their additional capital brought a lot of luck as well cos all of a sudden the tiles were finally listening to me! and of course there was that one game when someone had to bao my zi-mo 5 tai =). but i conclude i'm still a lousy mahjong player... i think i just enjoy the company, the banter and the music. =)

well then, i got home in the morning and promptly crashed for 8 hours. i love waking up at 5pm. =)

2008-02-21T10:49:00.000-08:00

i never thought i'd be one to admit this, but i can memorize the entire lyrics of this song despite not having heard it for the last 2 or 3 years at least. i'm such a closet boyband fan. muhaha

2008-02-19T02:36:00.001-08:00

not used to failing. and i just got more irritated with myself thinking about stuff.

on another note, it's amazing when someone understands you this well. when she can speak your mind and make you admit to things you dont want to think about. no wonder she can say "你是我生的!" =)

2008-02-17T21:36:00.000-08:00

SO CUTE! haha...

2008-02-17T07:19:00.000-08:00

认真的男人最有魅力。。。

当你默默严肃听着讲解时，我被深深吸引住。
当你聚精会神把车开走时，我被深深吸引住。

认真的男人真的很有魅力。

i was almost thankful to be able to clean off that layer of dust on my piece of wood and let it catch some sun again today. I know it was just a normal session for everyone, but i felt alot more. It's the same case of how you never learn to cherish something until you lose it. It will not be a regular thingy but to catch the waves once in a while... should be more than what i hope for =)

2008-02-16T09:00:00.000-08:00

can you say happy like bird?! =p

jazz plus one good interview plus rowing tmr plus 2 weeks of no classes.

happy like bird =)

2008-02-10T22:38:00.000-08:00

I’m still fumed, just that I have to keep a nice, smiling face cos this really hot exchange student plonked himself in front of the com right beside me.

Urgh.

DON’T take my niceness for granted.

2008-02-09T11:46:00.000-08:00

意犹未尽...

not enough time! meeting team b was fantastic today, even though i barely stayed an hour. happy birthday mari! and i promise to turn up for outings before ck translates his threats into actions =) it was nice just talking and updating one another. again again! soon soon soon!

dinner was great as usual. i think we need to experiment with blackjack and mahjong next time =)

tonight just proved ordinary-everyday events can be made extraordinary if you're with the right company. i had that twice tonight. heh =)

meet my newest best friend, stolen from my sis of course.

2008-01-28T08:17:00.000-08:00

when mummy says follow your heart...
what do you do?

bleagh =S

2008-01-26T12:49:00.000-08:00

As we walk to the left, as we walk to the right,
as we walk, as we walk, as we walk all night,
with a heel and a toe and a half turn-a-round,
with a heel and a toe and a new friend found.

walking under the stars with good conversation made my day.
Works well for the taxi fare too!

happy birthday pan. It was a great night out =)

2008-01-24T06:38:00.000-08:00

This kept me up all night...

i hearts keanu =) Speed was the start of a 14 year love affair that's still going on strong. haha... but seriously, i think i've watched this movie in the excess of 20 times? and i'll gladly watch it again. I think the score is fantastic and there is unbelievable chemistry between keanu reeves and sandra bullock. I was ecstatic when The Lake House came out in 2006 cos it reunited them, but i think i still like my cheesy, hero-saves-the-day action flicks better. =)

2008-01-21T12:42:00.000-08:00

have i also mentioned how much i miss feeling after-exercise aches? To feel the ache when i climb stairs or when i laugh makes me feel like i've done something good for myself, especially when it's been almost 3 long months since i've done anything vaguely related to exercise. Makes me happy =)

2008-01-20T06:24:00.000-08:00

almost 2 months, and the tears still come...

If We Could Bring You Back Again

If we could bring you back again,
For one more hour or day,
We’d express all our unspoken love;
We’d have countless things to say.

If we could bring you back again,
We’d say we treasured you,
And that your presence in our lives
Meant more than we ever knew.

If we could bring you back again,
To tell you what we should,
You’d know how much we miss you now,
And if we could, we would.

- Joanna Fuchs

taken from www.rememberingjerbroni.blogspot.com

as i slung my crumpler over my shoulder, it all felt the same again.
as i walked into the lift and stared at my reflection in the mirror trying to tame my unruly morning hair, it all felt the same again.
as i stepped out of my block into the cool morning air, it all felt the same again.
but when i left home without my precious piece of wood this morning, i knew nothing was the same. anymore.

2008-01-18T21:59:00.000-08:00

heartache... and longing.... whoever said they could only apply to love?

well, this is love too, just not for another individual, but a whole wonderful bunch of you (and a piece of wood standing behind my door).

2008-01-13T21:29:00.001-08:00

My lecturer was talking about the sense of smell and police dogs.

Lecturer: I’m sure you’ve heard of the police dogs in Malaysia who have a price on their head cos they can sniff out pirated vcds…

Irritating bimbo behind me: wah, they can sniff out pirated vcds. I can’t leh!

SAVE ME.

2008-01-12T12:56:00.001-08:00

I want to hold you all in my hands and never let go. I want you all to be with me wherever I go. This is going to be a year of changes and I just know it. I’m naïve to hope nothing will change but change will prove to be the only constant and I know it. Things are already changing as we speak and I’m not ready to let go. Sometimes I think I’m fearful of the unknown, of my own inability to hold on to things that matter to me cos history has proven me right time and time again. It’s only a numerical change so why am I feeling so so unsettled?

I’ll miss 2007.

It was a year when I allowed myself to go crazy doing just one thing. But look where and what that has brought me. =)

2008-01-10T19:37:00.000-08:00

You know how sometimes you get all anxious and worried and you don’t really know what the reason is? That was this morning… I figured it’s the bidding and the sudden realization I may not have a freaking last module. I WANT TO GRADUATE HOR! (of course, it might STILL be the pms back with a vengeance.)

Something struck me last night while I was on the train home with a friend. It seems like everyone has made a choice and moved on with their lives, so it’s time I should too. I still love the things I love to do and I should think about my next step though sometimes I do wish we were still 12.

It’s going to be one heck of a last semester and it’s not just because school work’s going to be madness and my schedule makes it seem like I’m a part time student going for night classes after work. I can already see myself amending cover letters, sending out resumes, and attending many network lunches and career fairs in a bid to start climbing the corporate ladder. Sometimes I don’t know if that’s what I really want to do, but then everything’s worth a try. It’ll be adios to school forever after april 30th (unless someone sponsors me to Switzerland to do my masters =p). It’s gonna be an exciting year ahead, a little unnerving, but definitely exciting. The world is my playground!

Time to plan out my 2008…

2008-01-08T19:06:00.000-08:00

Things you should NEVER do on the MRT… (in case people start plotting your death the moment you step out the train)

1. Talk on the train as if we all want to know about your girlfriend and her pet goldfish.
2. Let the phone ring one too many times, especially if it happens to be “I’m a Barbie girl, in a Barbie world….” NO.
3. Squeeze your way INTO the train when there are people who obviously need to get OUT.
4. Stay stuck and not move towards the centre of the carriage just because you found yourself a fantastic pole to rest your head, and butt.

Sigh… Singaporeans………

2008-01-08T08:32:00.000-08:00

after seeing ala's cute chow chow pic on his blog, i had no choice but to go look for other pics and videos cos they are simply much too adorable! =)

this is why...

they are enthusiastic
they are oh-so-sweet
they are serious
they are beautiful
and they are hilariously cute....

awwwwwwwww =)

2008-01-08T04:54:00.001-08:00

pms-ing.

beware.

2008-01-06T07:22:00.000-08:00

The Pursuit of Happiness

And so, we decided to make ourselves happy. =)

2008-01-04T23:12:00.000-08:00

i underestimate myself.

THREE PM =)

life is good!